In this edition of Ask Leah, Leah addresses the transformation of her mindset about her approach towards fitness and CrossFit since she first started. Leah also got her first kipping pull up on Saturday. Congrats!
Q-Leah, can you talk a little about the transformation of your mindset towards CrossFit since you started? For example, when you first started, was it just to lose weight and get in shape? Has that changed over time? If so how?
A-I definitely started CrossFit in order to lose weight and try to be more healthy. I generally felt overwhelmed by my weight-how high it was, how long it had been that high, and how unsuccessful I had been at making any lasting changes. I had started back at an “exercise plan” a couple months before I joined the box, and that consisted of lots of time on the elliptical and 2 days a week working with some nautilus machines. I had a nagging feeling that I actually needed some big time, significant help. I knew I needed something different, someone who would really take an interest in my progress and success, so much so that he would push me to work much, much harder than I was currently working. I had no idea where to find such a person, so Anna recommended CrossFit. My goal when I started was pretty simple, but it was massive-to lose 110 pounds. That was daunting to say the least.
With a goal like this, it was a bit frustrating to start CF and gain back the 10 pounds that I had lost from all that elliptical work, but I was far more interested in what I was now doing at the box, and I was way more sore and worn out from it. I figured all this struggle must be worth something, so I kept it up, started Paleo, and have lost 55 pounds over the last year.
If my goal in all of this had not changed at all, this number would be frustrating, not exciting. If I was still first and foremost concerned about hitting that 110 pound goal, I would be nice and tired of all this, wishing instead that I could just lose 10 pounds a week like they do on The Biggest Loser. But I am not frustrated and discouraged, I am thrilled. I never imagined how great it would feel to be only half way to that goal. I never imagined that my goal would actually change, that I would be happy to change my goal to 85 pounds and add so many other goals in the meantime.
It is most often these additional goals that keep me going. The weight loss can be slow and even non-existent for weeks at a time. I really had to break away from thinking that I HAD to lose a certain amount each week, or that weight loss was the most important thing. I had to learn to broaden my goals to include heavier lifts, faster times, and seeing (and really appreciating) progress in other movements. I had to learn to celebrate the progression of struggling through pushups on my knees to now struggling with regular pushups, and going from jumping pull ups only to the blue band, and then the green, and then the violet, or stepping up on the 12 inch box to finally being able to jump onto the 20 inch box.
I always know that I have so many goals that I can add to my list , so amazingly enough, I find that I think more about these new goals than the one I started with, the weight loss. Don’t worry, I am not kidding myself, I know I have more weight to lose, but I am now confident that I know what I need to do to get it done, and that it will happen. I probably get more stressed out about ever trying a HSPU again…
300m Sand Bag Run (80/50)
21 Ring Dips
15 Tire Flips